MOTION

You are not always stuck because you need more answers.
Sometimes you are stuck because you are waiting for certainty that was never meant to come first.

This episode is about motion.
Taking the step.
Moving while scared.
Starting before you have the full picture.

Because truthfully?
A lot of clarity does not come in the waiting.
It comes in the walking.

Hit play if you’ve been overthinking your next move.
This one is your reminder that the next step may reveal what staying still never will.

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SPEAKER_01 0:09

Hello, hello, hello, out there. Welcome back to emotional conversations of late after. Never ever the little beat right up for you as the Hello everyone. How is everyone doing? Welcome back to Emotional Conversations with Big Esther. Um, yeah, I'm your gracious and most friendly, amazing host. Um, yeah, so you guys are probably like, girl, where you been? Um, you guys are you guys already don't have a story. I always got a story. You understand me? Um, but yeah, I just wanted to say hello to everyone and congratulations. We made it to 2026. And I know a lot of you guys are saying, yeah, why? Why? Because 2026 is giving. Yeah, it's giving kind of crazy, but God is good. I hope everyone is doing absolutely amazing. I just can't believe that the first quarter is almost over. Like, we must truly be in the end days because in the Bible it says that days are going to seem very, very short, and that's what it's giving. You blink and yeah, like your week is over. But I hope everyone is doing amazing. I hope everyone's blessed. I hope everyone's safe. I hope everyone's full of joy and is really just taking their 2026 one day at a time. Yeah, yeah. I'm I'm I know that it's it was an interesting start for my 2026. My whole condo flooded out of nowhere. Thank God I was home. But yeah, like interesting a way to start the year, but God was really gracious. I just moved everything into another um apartment, another condo, and I'm doing well. Everything is well, everything's good. Um, yeah, it's it's been really, really interesting. It's been a really interesting year so far. And 2026, listen, it's a year of audacity. We're taking risks this year. We're we're not scared to fail. And that's kind of what I came to talk to you guys about. When some when I'm when I go through things, as you guys, I'm sure already know. You guys know I'd be going through it, and I'm really trying to like find my way and navigate life, and I never shy away from that. Like, I really don't be knowing. I'm still, I'm really starting to parent myself and just trying my best to get the help that I need and utilize the tools that I do have to just live a really God-centered, balanced life. That's very, very important to me. Those are some of the things that I'm finding out in this stage of my life. And that's what I want to kind of talk to, come and talk to you guys about. Um, today, I've been, I've been really looking at how I can change my life. How not only like when it comes to like material things, but really like I've been really, really obsessed with becoming my best self mentally, physically, emotionally. I've been obsessed with it, but I haven't necessarily been utilizing the tools that I I'm learning about. And one of the one of the key things that I was really just asking myself and asking God and asking the people around me was when it comes to just like being stagnant in life or feeling that you're stuck. You know, I think a lot of us have that. Like when you start the year strong, and then kind of around this time, you know, there's like a little bit of a slump. I don't know if it's like that for other people, but I know for me, like I start to experience a little bit of a slump because you just you just run into the new year excited with so much capacity, energy, and power, right? Which is a great, great thing. But for me, I'm always asking for clarity. I I'm a teacher by office. So if you know anything about offices, if you're a believer, we have evangelistic, pastoral, we have prophet, apostle, pastor, and teacher. Yeah, I think, yeah, those are just like five of them or something. And listen, saints and ain't listen, the Lord loves you all the same. And if you know anything about that, then you should read um a book that my spiritual authority wrote about the fivefold offices. It's awesome. I know a lot of people say that offices in like Christendom is like horoscopes in the world, but I listen, one thing that's a pet peeve to me is when y'all be asking me what my office is, like, please leave me alone. Anyways, so I've been I've been really trying to figure out you know, there's something that the Lord has asked me to do, and I've been in s in disobedience for a very long time, which is recording this podcast. So I want to start there. And he gave me this platform, honestly, till now, guys. I don't really know. I know a little bit, but I don't know everything. And that's what was keeping me stuck. I wanted clarity. I wanted to know it's it's I'm a type I'm the type of person I like stability, I like balance. Um, I'm not the best when it comes to changing things rapidly because I am so I do want stability, and I've lived in chaos for a really long time when it comes to the way that I was raised and nurtured and cared for. You know, my household was most of the time chaotic. So my naturally, my nervous system wants peace, it wants balance. So, you know, God giving me speaking arrangements, which is, you know, my business, and emotional conversations being, you know, just under the umbrella of speaking arrangements, which is a podcast that I'm working, because it's gonna be listen, I'm an author, I'm an actor, I'm everything. Okay, it's giving broadcasting, period. It's been it's been really interesting because I'm like, God, like why? You know, what is it do you want me to say to people that people are already not saying? And I was talking to someone that um I love dearly, who's a leader at my church that I go to, and we I was just kind of like, you know, kind of like just going back and forth with him. And I was telling him, and and you know, he said something to me that kind of rocked me. And he said, Because I don't want to pod, and you guys know that I haven't been podding for a really long time, but I want to stop before listen, my brain is it goes everywhere, okay? It runs like 100 miles per hour. But, anyways, I want to say shout out to everybody that's been listening to um emotional conversations with Esther, even though I haven't been podcasting and you guys have been supporting me. I went to like the Holy Spirit was like, go look at your statistics, and literally in one day I had like 200 downloads, like in a couple days. I, you know, and I'm just like, who is still listening to this podcast? Like, I don't, I don't even talk about it because I've just literally traumatized myself and I've been full of fear and I've been literally in bondage every time that I look at my recording equipment. I just get the ug. I'm like, I don't want to do that. So much other people have podcasts that are doing excellently well. Like, why do I what what is it that I can add to the the conversation that's already not been said or not being talked about? And you know, the Lord is very interesting because the amount of pressure that I've been feeling like I haven't been able to sleep. Listen, I've been eating, but I haven't been able to sleep. It's really been on my mind. And I've been in disobedience, so I definitely owe the Lord an apology. You know, Jesus, I've repented already. But I want to apologize to you guys because you guys have been faithful listeners. And a lot of you guys, while I wasn't podcasting, has been coming up to me, be like, where's the next episode? Where's the next episode? What's happening? And I think for us, sometimes like we don't look at the bigger picture, you know. So I want to start off to with publicly just giving this platform back to God because this platform does not belong to me. Like speaking arrangements, emotional conversations with Esther doesn't belong to me, it belongs to Jesus Christ. And I want to live it at your feet, Lord, and give it back to you because it's yours. I'm just the vessel. So I'm here to let you guys know do not shoot the messenger. Anyways, you guys can never try to shoot the messenger, period. Um, but I am just the vessel, I'm just a mouthpiece for what the Lord wants to say to you guys. And He has so much to say. He has so much to say. So I say all that to kind of bring it in. I want to talk about motion. You're probably like, Esther, what are you talking about when it comes to motion? Motion when you feel like you have no clarity. So when the Lord asks you something or there's something that you want to do, some like a dream that you have, but you don't have the clarity. You know, you don't have the full confidence, you don't have the full healing, you don't have the full clarity. Like I said, you don't have the full resources, but it's you know it's something that you want to do. Motion would be taking that step without that clarity, without the blueprint. And I think that that's what keeps people trapped for so long. That's what stops people from literally living their dreams or fought or you know, living their dreams, or opening that business, writing that book, starting that podcast, um, applying to that job. One, you know, on my journey, the Holy Spirit's been merciful and he's been so helpful, and he's sent people my way that have just been speaking to me and speaking to my heart and speaking to my heart and just really pushing me to explore that fear that I was experiencing when it came to recording or just putting myself out there. Like I am a sensitive babe. I'm a very, very sensitive babe. I feel things very deeply. Um, and sometimes I can be intense without even saying a word. And that's been used against me a lot. You know, there's just been a lot of demonic words that have been spoken to me by people in passing, by, you know, family members, by my authorities, and by myself, you know, from myself. And it's been damaging. It's been damaging. And going through therapy and just doing the work, it's been excruciating, just uprooting those roots and replacing them with the things that the Lord has said about me and the truth. Because I've been listening to lies, but God is the, he's my ultimate father, he created me. So whatever he says about me, that's the truth. And, you know, I would get into places where I was angry at God because I was like, You gave me emotional conversations with Esther. I don't know what to do with it. I can barely come up with topics. I, you know, how are people gonna receive this? Nobody wants to hear me talk because I because human beings had told me that the skills and the gifts, things that the Lord has given me wasn't valuable and they treated it like it wasn't valuable. So I believe that it wasn't valuable. I remember I tell the story all the time that, you know, God bless them, but I remember somebody told me that my podcast was trash. I remember um they said that my no, they said the content was good, but my images were trash or something like that. And then like that went so deep, especially like especially because uh podcast, you know, I remember I started this podcast in 2019 and podcasting wasn't like a big thing, and I had to kind of navigate it. And you know, these people are the people that people look at, like, oh, they got all the answers. And, you know, I was kind of like, well, if they think it's crazy, then imagine what other people think. You know what I mean? And that really went deep into my spirit, and I don't think that's what they intended, but that's why we have to watch our words. That's why we have to always walk in kindness and not let the devil use us, not the devil, you know, not allow the devil to, you know, use us constantly, right? Fear was a big one for me too. Like I was completely crippled by fear, like I didn't realize how much I was hiding in the shadows, like how much I didn't want to put myself out there. I know some people might look on my Instagram and be like, oh, but you host this, you do this, you do this. And it's like, that's like the bare minimum of what I could be doing. Because I was so scared to fail. I was like, God, I don't have the full blueprint. I don't know what the future holds. You're just like sending me into the dark, right? And today, if you don't get anything from this episode, I just wanted to come on here and let you guys know that my core message to you guys is that you don't need the full picture to take the right step, to take a step of wisdom. Just taking a step is is is wisdom in itself. I think many people think that clarity is something that's like you just sit and wait for. And listen, being in solitude and sitting and waiting on the Lord, some it's a good thing, right? It's awesome. But we have to understand and we have to understand, is it is it are we sitting and waiting for God, his instructions, or are we sitting and and kind of like not taking that step because we're scared, we don't know. Right? I think that clarity, what I'm learning, I think that clarity is something that is like earned through engagement. There has to be motion. When you take one step, I think a little bit of clarity comes and you take another step, and then a little bit of clarity comes and then you take another step. And that's how you build the blueprint. That's how you, that's how you get clarity, especially with God, especially when God has called you to do something and you don't know why He's called you to do it. You don't, you don't even like it. I think that's the only way that we'll really get through to doing the things that our heart desires and what the Lord has called us to do, right? I think that you really, really discover your strengths. You just are in those times of the unknowing. And to be really honest, I like I said, I come from a little bit of a background of chaos and it can be fun, but it can be scary at the same time, right? Like I find that fear is not always a stop sign because I find that sometimes when we're going into things, it's like, oh, I'm so scared to do this. It's no, that means that it, that must mean that I'm not supposed to do it. And I think most times the way that the universe works, the way that the world works, whatever, it's usually when you're fearful, like the dream that you have or the whatever it is that you're trying to um achieve, the goal that you have, whether it be financially, physically, emotionally, spiritually, whatever. If you're really fearful of it, that means that you might be, you might be on the right path. Because sometimes when we live in our comfort zone, I think our comfort zone is like deadly. I think it's super dangerous to just stay in your comfort zone. I believe in staying in your lane, and tending your, your, your, your ground that the Lord has given you, but I I don't believe in staying in what feels comfortable. I think that life is to be lived. I think you're really living when you are outside of that, outside of your comfort. It's courageous. And the Bible says, have I not commanded you to be courageous, taking risks. I told myself this year that 2026 is a year of audacity. I am taking risks, I'm doing things. I don't care if I'm failing in front of people. I don't give a damn. I want to live, I want to feel something. I want to, when I'm when it's all said and done, and I go to be with my maker, I want to say that I have lived this life, that I've impacted people, that I've helped people, that I helped myself, that I left something on this earth that I could be remembered by, that I created something. Right? And I think motion helps us do that. And like I said, being scared is not always proof that you know you're not in alignment. Sometimes the proof is that you're stepping into something that's bigger than you, that's bigger than out that is bigger than you, that is out of your comfort zone, that is not even about you. It's the bigger picture, the people that you're going to touch, the people that the Lord wants, whatever it is that He's asked you to do to impact.

SPEAKER_00 16:47

I find, and another thing too, I think that I find that when you move, you gather data.

SPEAKER_01 16:52

And that's where the clarity is. Because as you move, as you take one step, you learn what works for you, what doesn't work for you. You learn what's what you need to adjust, right? You learn from your mistakes, you learn from what you actually want and what you don't want. Because sometimes we can start with things and it's like, okay, this is what we want, this is what God wants for me. And no, he corrects us on the way and it's fun. I know it sounds a little bit, you know, because the Lord be doing a lot sometimes. You understand? The Lord be doing a lot sometimes, but you got to work with him and know that he's always gonna be there. He's always gonna be with you. It's if he called you to it, then he's given you the capacity and the grace and the love for it. It's a faith thing. Motion and faith, they go together. It's giving cousins, it's giving first cousins, okay? Motion and faith, they go together. And you learn what you're capable of, what you're made of, everything that you need to achieve your goals, everything that you need to do something in this life, to create something in this life, it's inside of you already. And when you go on this journey of motion, you find out what those things are. You learn what God has for you, the life that He has for you. You experience so much things that you can teach other people before action, before motion, like literally everything is theory. Before you take that step, you're just talking about it, you're just talking about it, it's in your heart, you know, you're talking to God about it, you're asking the Lord more questions and more questions when he's already told you to go. So everything is still in theory mode. But after the action, some it all becomes real. When when I when the Lord told me to do speaking arrangements, which is, you know, start, it's a broadcasting business, right? I want to get into broadcasting. I wanted to heal through words. That's that's what that's a mandate that he gave me. I was like, why? Because I'd be I'd be using my mouth to cuss folks out because people be playing with me all the time. That was the old me, not me anymore. I'm safe through Christ, okay? The Lord is still working on me. I was like, why, Lord? You know, I was just sitting there, I was just talking about it, okay. I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it, I'm doing when I went and got my podcast equipment, when I got my MacBook, when I got my my podcasting platform, and I paid for everything and I picked up this mic and recorded, that's when everything that was theory to me before became action, it became real. I was like, oh, I'm in the thick of it. I'm a podcaster. And there's something that comes with that. There's just something, there's something that that comes with that. And I think that, you know, I want to get into the, I want to really be transparent with you guys. I think waiting, because I was waiting for me to get topics for this podcast. I was waiting for, you know, podcast equipment and how I can turn this into a visual podcast. And I was waiting for, you know, the right people to come and help me, and I was waiting for resources and I was waiting for the right people to interview. And, you know, listen, I'm not saying don't plan. You gotta plan as you go, right? But there has to be some type of motion because I think that waiting for certainty and waiting for, you know, everything to be perfect, it's self-sabotage. It really, really is. Like a lot of people are waiting for, you know, they're waiting because they they think it's a the wise thing to do. And I'm here to tell you guys that it's not because it can become it can become failure at one point, it can become embarrassment, it'd be, you know, if you don't do what it is that you you set out to do.

SPEAKER_00 20:30

Listen, the cost of moving, the cost of motion, it's real.

SPEAKER_01 20:34

You might fail, you might wobble, you you might have to pivot, you might have to change, but refusing to move is also real. You stay stuck, you stay, you know, you have unanswered questions, unanswered prayers, unanswered ideas. When I say unanswered one unanswered ideas, I mean ideas that you're not putting to work and unrealized potential. And I think that is so scary to live on that, that other side of that, then the not knowing. That scares me more than not having clarity for what it is that the Lord has told me to do. You don't need to see the entire staircase. When you're going, when you're walking downstairs, are you looking at all the stairs? No, you're just taking step by step. It's a faith thing. I keep telling you guys, it's a faith thing. Motion and faith go together. I'm not saying push through everything. No, no, no. There's a difference between push through and motion. Motion is I don't know what's going on right now, but I'm gonna trust God and I'm gonna have faith in God and myself and the people around me to take me to the next step. I'm going to take a next step and I'm not gonna be scared. You don't need a whole five year plan. Let's talk about this five year plan because I feel like be people be setting people up. Listen, shout out to all the people and the gurus online that have their lives planned out for the next five, 10 years because they're just great in their head. God bless you guys. But I really truly feel like this life, this come this life that we're born into, it's a Day by day, minute by minute, hour by hour thing. I'm not saying don't write down your goals for the next five years or two years or one year. Like, absolutely, write down what you would like. Write down what God has for you. Write down what God has spoken to you about. I'm not saying don't plan. We come on, we we have to plan. But when when you hear people say, I know everything I'm gonna do in the next five years, most of the time they don't. Okay. Like most of the time you you don't know your whole what your healing journey is gonna be like when you set out to heal and you you start therapy and you have start having those hard, uncomfortable conversations. You don't know what your business model completely might be, and you don't have to. You don't have to. Send that email, register that business, start therapy, post that video, even if you think it's cringe, apply for that job, apply for that C-suite job, apply for a promotion, ask for a promotion, have those hard conversations, write the first page of your book, go to the gym, even if it's once, even if you get up and go to the gym to look around, go pray.

SPEAKER_00 23:20

I'm uh listen, pray, stay prayed up, obey, but do it's in the doing.

SPEAKER_01 23:31

And what another thing I want to hit that the Holy Spirit told me, and I said, I had to scream, listen, if you don't know, that is the language of the Lord, the language of the spirit. I had to scream. I said, Jesus. I was listen, I was going back and forth, I was going back and forth with the Lord, da da da da da. And he was just explaining to me through Chat GPT, because you know, chat GPT, listen, it's not the Holy Spirit. Don't ever, ever get it twisted. But you can put in, you know, I use Chat GPT. Like I even named my chat GPT Essie. I'd be putting in prompts, it'd be taking me deeper, and then I'd be conversating with the Holy Spirit, putting things in that he's given me and just flushing it out because I'm a thinker. I really am. I I need to see things, I need to think about it, I need to break it down for me to understand so I can I can pass it on to other people. And the Holy Spirit was saying to me that often obedience comes before understanding, blood of Jesus. Can I get an amen? Can I get an amen? Can I get an amen? Can I get an amen? Obedience often comes before understanding. When the Lord gives you whatever it is that He's told you to do, just do it like Nike. Just do it. Just do it, just obey. Obedience is better than sacrifice. I never really understood that. Just obey. And the Lord is faithful and true. He will not leave you hanging, even when it feels like he's left you hanging. He will never forsake you. Never have I seen the righteous forsaken. I'm speaking to myself too.

SPEAKER_00 25:11

Obey, and he will give you understanding. He will give you understanding. And a lot of times I know we we're humans, we want an explanation before the action.

SPEAKER_01 25:28

But many of life's breakthroughs happen when literally we respond to what we know already, the information that we know. Because God's not going to give you nothing, completely puts you in the dark. No, a lot of times the Lord gives us revelation, He gives us prophecy. A lot of times the answers are in the Bible. A lot of times He gives us answers through community, through schooling, through work. Like He is speaking all the time.

SPEAKER_00 25:47

He never stops speaking.

SPEAKER_01 25:53

A lot of times we want, well, give me a step, 10-step program, give me a five-step program that can do da-da-da. And we're refusing to take the first step. How y'all want 10? And how do we want 10 and 5 and 6 and 8 when we can't even take the first step? Small steps are not small if they break stagnation. And I know that a lot of times we're all talking about our our platforms and what we're doing, and it has to be on a mega scale and da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da. When you're taking steps, one step at a one step at a time, one step at a time, that will break the stagnation that you experiencing. That place where you feel stuck, just once one foot in front of the other guys. Because a lot of times we're in a generation where everything has to be big, big, big on a big scale, on a big scale, like just 18, 15, 10 year olds that are milli billionaires and millionaires. It's just, you know. So we're thinking, okay, no, we got to take big steps. Everything has to be big. And, you know, a lot of times we often we often dismiss like tiny beginnings or small beginnings. We build foundations. The foundation has to be right. The foundation has to be right because you can be a multimillionaire, a multi-billionaire, and not be, I don't want to say happy, not be whole. There's nothing sadder than having prosperity and not being whole. I seen Elon Moss talk um Elon Moss um tweet the other day talking about, oh, whoever said that money doesn't buy happiness was really right. I know sometimes people might look at him and be like, well, that's easy for him to say because he has all the money in the world, but I don't think that man is happy.

SPEAKER_00 27:31

I don't think that man is whole with all the amazing things that he does and is doing in life. A quiet yes is still a yes.

SPEAKER_01 27:46

A messy start is still a start. Small motion is still motion. It's still motion. The first time might not be impressive, like you know what I mean. I'm still I'm still audio. The Lord was like, uh I know you want to go visual, but you're still audio, sweetie. All my friends that have podcasts are visual. I'm still audio, it is what it is. Okay, this journey for emotional conversations has been messy, it's been embarrassing. I I I record and I don't, and you know, literally people are watching me, I guess, fail in real time. But I have to keep coming back. And listen, I'm not back because of anything, I'm back because the Lord is good. Right?

SPEAKER_00 28:30

So y'all pray for me. Pray for your sister out there. And I just want to talk to you guys really quickly.

SPEAKER_01 28:41

I know I think I've already, I already have, but I want to talk to you guys really quickly about why people stay stay stuck and the vicious cycle that the devil puts them in, or you know, the negative thoughts that come to us when we're trying to take a step. And I know I'm not saying we're gonna get it every single day, but we have to, we have to really, really utilize the people we have around us, utilize the love, the grace, the Holy Spirit to take small steps and take steps in general, right? I think that a lot of people are scared to fail. Um, I think that people are afraid of success. I don't think that people trust themselves. That's a very big one. I didn't trust myself for a really, really long time because I was told that I wasn't reliable, I didn't make good decisions, and to be really honest, the decisions that I'm making weren't the best. So it was really hard to trust myself. So I couldn't take any steps because I'm like, I don't even think I'm making the right step. The Holy Spirit's looking at me and I'm looking at him. You know what I mean? So that was a really big one for me. Um, a lot of people are carrying past disappointments. Maybe they did try, maybe they did take a move, and it it, you know, it it ended up really causing them a lot of pain and traumatizing them. I totally understand that too. Um, you know, they it this doesn't come this doesn't come with guaranteed outcomes, guys. That's why it's a risk. That's why it's it's motion, you're moving even though you don't know, right? I think that a lot of times people confuse like perfection with preparedness, and that's not true. You're not gonna get it perfect. You probably don't want it to be perfect, no one's perfect, everything has, you know, it could always we can always improve, right? I think that's another thing, and you know, I think that people have just been hurt before and they're very cautious, and I understand that, but that will keep you in bondage.

SPEAKER_00 30:37

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 30:38

I really wanted to talk to you guys about this, and I hope that it blesses someone because this is this is something that had me in a chokehold for years, and you know, just devaluing what the Lord has given me, being scared to move, being scared to fail in front of people, just you know, being on a safe side and just saying, like, if I don't try this, then no one can say that I failed at it. You know, being being so caught up with people's validation and what people think about me. And I've always been like a just a wild child that just kind of always did what I wanted to do. And as I grew up, I find that like I really started to like go inward, like, you know what I mean? Kind of just take myself off the scene because, you know, all of everything that I went through, things that made me very insecure the way I spoke. I, you know, I'm always like, I don't speak eloquently. I'm a little bit, you know, I'm a little bit sharp harsh around the edges and blah, blah, blah, blah. And it's like, okay, and I said what I said. I think a really good book that, you know, if you haven't read this book, it's by John Maxwell. It's called Feeling Forward. It's it's an awesome book. Get it and read it, please. It's an amazing book that will really help you with that self-sabotage, that will really help you to hone in on the skills that you have and love, love what the Lord has placed in your hands and how to just continue to go. I think, you know, before I go, because I I wanted to keep this short, one of the things that I experienced, like I said, was I really just devalued who God called me to be. I really just, and and I I wasn't locked in or cued in. The Lord has been saying it, but I just didn't believe it because I was listening to human beings and what they thought about me. And, you know, and I, and I those a lot of the words, I took them deeply and I internalized them. But now I'm in a place where I actually don't care what human beings say about me and how they think about me or whatever it is. Like I'm going for everything that the Lord gave me in this life. I'm going for it. I'm coming for everything that belongs to me. And I don't give a damn I don't care if people see me fail. I don't care if people see me win. I don't give a damn about that because this vision and this purpose that God has put on my life, it's bigger than me. It's not about me. It's not about me. Imagine if when the Lord came to earth to die for our sins, if he was just like, oh Lord, I'm finna die, I'm finna die, I made it about himself. Like, yeah, there was a time when he was like, you know what, God, I don't I actually don't want to do this. But he was like, you know, nevertheless, your will, not mine.

SPEAKER_00 33:14

Right? So that's kind of how we have to look at it. I mean, yeah. Yeah.

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You don't need to hold know the whole plan. You don't need all the clarity in the world, you don't know the entire blue, you don't need the entire blueprint, you know. Clarity is often a reward for movement. I really do believe that. Um and just be intentional about what you're doing. Be intentional about what you're doing. Try your best to be present in the motion, don't just, you know, go through the motions. Have motion, but don't go through the motions. Like really try to enjoy yourself, learn, be happy when you fail. Like I said, that provides data that provides more clarity. You can't just think your way to every answer. Sometimes you just really gotta walk into it and just go. Listen, fear is loud, okay? It's it's very loud. But you're wise for even thinking about taking steps. You don't, like I told you guys, this faith thing, it goes along with motion, okay? You take a faithful step, you take a step full of wisdom, you're you're in the right path. Just keep going. I find that for me, a lot of times movement, it exposes like the overthinking, like what my overthinking hides, which is usually, like I said, fear, the unknown, no clarity. Listen, small beginnings are gonna break all that paralysis. Just go for it. Whatever you want to do, you can do it. And sometimes when you feel that fear, you feel that tension, you feel that uncomfortability, sit in it. Sit in it, ask questions. Don't run from it. Sit in it, ask questions. A lot of you guys want to be entrepreneurs, a lot of you guys want to write books, go to school, get married, have children, buy homes, whatever, be financially free. It takes risks. It takes you to take a step. You know, so I hope this helps you guys. I hope that you guys are blessed. I hope that you, I know a lot of things are going on in the world right now. Lean into your family, leave in, lean into your friends and family, your village, your community. Please find one. Um, please find a local church if you don't have community at all. The Lord loves you like never before. He never changes. If you're not a believer, Jesus Christ loves you no matter what you're doing, no matter what you look like, no matter what your sex is, no matter who you love, no matter what your race or religion is. Trust me, he loves you. He is your ultimate father. And you can always come to him. He's always waiting for you guys. That's always going to be my charge for you guys. Um, thank you so much for going on this journey with me. I really, really appreciate you guys. Please, guys, go in motion, pray, think, and discern the right move, the right data, the right information will come to you. Obedience, obedience, obedience, obedience. This year, we are asking for the spirit of obedience. I pray that it will rest upon all of us to obey what the Lord has said to us, put our egos aside, put our pride aside, put fear aside, and just go. And I promise you guys, I promise you guys that life will just become it'll come clear. You'll get answers one day at a time, one day at a time, one moment, one hour, one step at a time. It's gonna work out for y'all. Okay, thank y'all. Thank y'all, thank y'all, thank y'all. Thank you for coming to my TED Talk. I love you guys so much. I'm working. Y'all pray for me. Okay, so find me on Instagram, y'all. Emotional conversations with E. Um, listen to my podcast, like, share, subscribe. We through, be true, and please read that book. Please read that book. Healing forward by John Maxwell. I love you guys until next time, y'all. Bye.